For 12/4/10

[THIS IS MY VIEW LOOKING DOWN WHILE SITTING]

Tomorrow I will be 37wks pregnant! I am still not feeling excitment about the arrival of Emily. Not that I'm dreading it, I just feel like it's not really happening. That this will all abruptly end when I wake up and realize I've been dreaming this whole time! I know that sounds crazy, but it's how I honestly feel. Sadly, I don't think it will fully sink in until I'm holding her. I have had this odd feeling, however, my entire pregnancy that something is off with my baby. I pray she comes out with 10 fingers and 10 toes, but I can't help but feel like something is going to shock us when she comes and we finally see her. I know, another crazy thing, but I can't help but give this thought my attention only because I had the same weird feeling with my last pregnancy. I knew that baby would never breathe the same air as me. I didn't know if I would miscarry or if I would deliver a stillborn, I just knew my baby would never breathe in air, or cry. Now I'm facing this feeling again and it's really worrying me. But I'm putting my faith and trust in God, that everything will be fine with baby Emily. But if it's not too much to ask, I would like for everyone who reads this to say a tiny prayer for our baby & for a safe delivery. Thank you!